what’s next???

what’s next??? is a good question that applicable into my life at this present. I am in the situation more advance than its supposed to be. Because of this, I am unable to enjoy and expect and excited of what is going to happen next. I used to hate having a kid, used to hate having  a struggling life, I hate poverty, no I do  not hate poor but I have the condition of having so much lacking in life. So, I dreamed to be rich, and really to dream to be rich is not a sin or bad at all because God in his great power provide us with everything to have and to enjoy life to the full. I dream. I dream and really dream of big thing to come. I work for it. I go for it. But the rewards is only purely money. and then I realize having enough money is not what we all need. Having enough money is not making life full and happy.  I do not believe in family though I have a wonderful responsible parents but I don’t believe in family. So, I choose to be a live-in partner. To feel how is it having a husband or family of your own, but u know what, there is so much lacking. So much emptiness that I cannot explain. I felt like I belong to someone, yet I don’t belong to someone. I felt like I have a husband, yet I do not have my own husband. I felt in between. I felt terrible. I felt saddened. I felt hatred of him each single day. I felt hopeless. I felt careless, I felt disaster. I have no more happiness. but I cannot leave the situation because of material reasons. Yes, I am materialistic woman, yet I value hardwork and respect. Who in the world do not like to have a great life. Who in the world, love to have plenty. I want all. I have all. but I do not have anything. You cannot imagine the feeling that I am in .. which is all made by me…. I am INSANE….

letting go…

letting go…. what a relief of feelings of imprisonment to let go of such horrible and controlling behaviour I had had. Few months back and yesterday I keep praying to God for HIS divide guidance in my life and wisdom to see beyond the circumtance that I am in… and today, GOD in his very constant character as always showed me the way while I am lying in bed this morning… He said, let go of your controlling behaviour, do not let control the whole situation that I am giving unto you, for IT is ME who allow these events that are happening  into your life to happen for my higher purpose and reason that is about to come in your life. U need this event because this will make you the person that I want you to become. Let go of so trying hard to control everything becz it is impossible for you to control u will just wasting your time and not enjoying your life if you keep on controlling the situation. There is no way that you can be against ME.. When I, myself listen to GOD and start to keep thanking HIM for the deliverance and providence of the situation that I am in then and only then I felt true happiness, calmness, success and true FREEDOM that no amount of money can buy…. to GOD I salute… To HIM is the glory and To HIM is the honor.. now I LET GO AND LET GOD take care my situation…. i am happy

you can succeed by who you are

all the while I thought I can only be successful if I follow what the successful person is doing and being. But now I understand and from experience I have learned that I can be a success from who I am and what I am naturally good at. We don’t have to follow what any other fellows have done in order to succeed because we just can simply succeed by being who we are and what we are gifted to do. All we need to do is talk to God and ask for His divine guidance to know what we are naturally good at and then ask His help to help us do to our maximum gift of level and He will do the rest. You will be amazed how much success you will attain and freedom you will be having. SIMPLY BE A SUCCESS FOR WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU ARE…. because you are born for it…. have a grreat days ahead of you.

Who’s the Boss?

I have an excerpt from Ms. Joyce Meyer who happens to be my advisor without her knowing. I love her book and it teaches me so much about life and decisions. I hope You can learn from this post.

Who’s the Boss, You or Your Emotions?

by Joyce Meyer

The daily ups and downs of our emotions are one of the major struggles we have with our relationships. Instead of riding the emotional roller coaster, we need to become stable, solid, steadfast, persevering and determined people. If we continue to let our emotions rule over us, there’s no way we’ll ever be the person we were meant to be. Of course, none of us will ever be totally rid of emotions, but we must learn to manage and control them—not let them control us. Life is no fun when we are controlled by feelings. Feelings change from day to day, hour to hour, even moment to moment. Not only do they change, they lie. For example, you may be in a crowd of people and feel that everybody is talking about you, but that doesn’t mean they are. You may feel that nobody understands you, but that doesn’t mean they don’t. You may feel you are misunderstood, unappreciated or even mistreated, but that doesn’t mean it is true. If we want to be mature, disciplined people, we must be determined not to walk according to what we feel. People often ask me, “How can I know for sure whether I’m walking in the truth or walking according to my feelings and emotions?” I believe the answer is found in patience. Emotions urge us toward haste, telling us that we must do something and do it right now! But godly wisdom tells us to wait until we have a clear picture of what it is we are to do and when we are to do it. We need to be able to back off and view our situation from God’s perspective. We need to make decisions based on what we know rather than on what we feel.

Let me give you an example from my own life. One time I had saved up money to invest in real estate to buy a house and lot of my own. I keep asking all my friends and family members for any property listings and contacts and I were into surfing one day whom I  happened to read some property listings so I decided to contact the person to view the property. After seeing the photos attached I fell in love with the property and said to myself this is what I am looking for but there was one problem if Im going to purchase it I will lose all the cash I have and I don’t know exactly how long it will take me to make it an income giving property. My plan was to have an income-generating property  because I don’t want to work for somebody anymore. At the same time I needed some money to get me thru to the months because I will be quitting my Job.  The decision were critical because I was working against time. As there are another couple who really wants to purchase the same property.  Actually there were three things I wanted that time: the house and lot, quitting my Job and I wanted not to be broke. What did I decide to do? I applied wisdom and decided to wait. The property—which really in everyday affairs there is always an opportunity to buy and sell property. The work- which will give me wisdom and daily experiences and interactions with friends and colleagues everyday rather than quitting and just waiting an income from a property. So I decided that the best thing was to keep my money and wait until I was sure of what I wanted most. Usually the wisest course is, when in doubt, don’t decide! When faced with any difficult decision, wait until you have a clear answer before taking a step that you may regret. Emotions are wonderful, but they must not be allowed to take precedence over wisdom and knowledge. Remember—control your emotions instead of letting them control you.

for a Moment like this… some people needs a lifetime

as the song lyric goes… for a moment like this.. some people needs a lifetime… for a moment like this some even wait forever… oh, its a special thing that I can’t believe its happening in my life. A kind of freedom beyond explanation and beyond comprehension. Life is so tricky and not easy for all of us. No one is exempted… everyone feels the same. No exact definition nor accurate adjective to describe life in its fullness. People asks… what is life? who is God… no scientist or whatsoever can fathom the real meaning and cause of life on this earth… no one and I mean- no one… maybe at the moment in time we can define life,love and God in a very short and simplest form but that is for the very very moment of time. The next day, you will be amazed how tricky life is because what you have understood or have explained about life previously you will find that you are again doing exactly totally different from what your definition is… because you know why???… we are but only fallible and fragile limited human being. We thought we know, but actually we have no idea what is life all about… I’d say, FOR A Moment like this, now, in my life.. some people needs a lifetime to feel what I feel, to taste what I have been given a chance to taste of what is life, love and God in its fullness.

One thing I can tell is that, Live your life. Enjoy your life. Do what you want (i mean the things that you really want because we have only one life) without regard of reason, rationalization.. step out on the fear of doing something because of the feeling and questions of what if,,, what if..,. what if…. life is an experience, its not about living in what ifssss but in celebrating from the inside.

The story of my life, searching for a light, a guidance, no one can ever give. No one can ever teach, no one can ever fulfill…. Forgive me if I cannot explain in proper explanation but whoever is reading this and feels the same way or have experience the say way I do… I think, no enough words is right to explain but only can be understood.

Whoever are you, reading this, Remember… no amount of money can buy FREEDOM, FREEDOM FROM WITHIN. no amount of money can buy LOVE, love from the inside. No amount of money can buy FORGIVENESS, forgiveness from the bottom of the heart. No amount of money can buy …. L.I.F.E…. experience it… love it… enjoy it… and take hold the freedom you have…

have a great life, ahead of you…..

….becz we are Friends

Sweet words are easy to say,

Sweet things are easy 2 buy,

But sweet people are difficult to find

Life ends when U stop dreaming,

Hope ends when U stop believing,

Love ends when U stop caring,

Friendship ends when U stop sharing.

So share this with whom ever U consider a friend.

To love without condition,

To talk without intention,

To give without reason,

And to care without expectation is the heart of a true friend…

Life is short, Break the rules,

Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly,

Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably,

And never regret anything that made you smile.

Pray to all the people you love or visit them at all — it is your choice….

BRain… God’s Gift to survival

I have an experienced. A profound one. Let me share it to you my story.

My Experience: 16 years ago, there was a one man shall I say, a holy man, a religious man, who taught me alot of things in life. One thing He taught me which has a very profound effect in my life NOW is -TO LIVE LIFE IN THE PRESENT. BE A NOW PERSON. He said, Do not worry for the future. let it worry by itself. And forget the past, because nothing much you can do about it. Just LIVE YOUR LIFE FOR TODAY.

The Effect: During that time, I was only 10 years old. With that age, I know nothing, I have No experienced in life. So, all I  did was to listen to him and look at him intently. But it didn’t penetrate to my being or to my soul, not to my awareness. SO, I continue living my life. Time fly so fast and here’s what happen.

After 16 years: Today, I only realize that what the man have taught me has a very strong tremendous effect into my life. I am not aware that all my life I was living the word that the man have taught me. To LIVE LIFE IN THE PRESENT AND BE A NOW PERSON. The worst thing is that I cannot plan or decide for my future: and I just forget whatever happens in my life may it be good or bad. There was no learning. No understanding and endless nothingness in me. Maybe My application to what the man have taught me is wrong but sometimes when we are being taught with something beyond our comprehension or being taught with something not in the right time like at a very young age, we might be believing of something not the exact meaning. I felt like what the man have taught me is like I am imprisoned to a belief that life must be live that way.I am so helpless. Imagine whatever happens to me in the past I always forget. I cannot recall. I cannot decide for my future nor can plan for the next move. Maybe I’m dumb, crazy , naive, or whatever you call it but that was the effect in me. This is the reality that had happend to me. I hate it. I really hate it. I am cursed. Not until…..

NOW: One important man in my life, noticed it. He noticed why I am very forgetful to whatever happens to me. Why it seems like I am a sand. Scattered and wherever wind blows there I goes. He noticed why I am such a strange behaviour. Then, only I start digging for an answer inside of me. One night, I did not sleep but I always asking myself. All the why’s that you can think of… I have asked. Then only I found the answer. That because of the profound word that the man -16 years ago have taught me TO LIVE LIFE IN THE PRESENT AND BE A NOW PERSON. —then thats it–. So, i told my man about this. I am crying and helpless. He said. FREE YOURSELF FROM THAT CURSE. HE SAID TO ME: WHATEVER THAT MAN (16YEARS AGO) THAT HE HAD TAUGHT YOU IS NOT APPLICABLE IN YOUR LIFE NOW. IT WILL BE APPLICABLE ONLY TO A CERTAIN PEOPLE IN LIFE. WE HAVE DIFFERENT CALLING IN LIFE. WE ARE BORN FOR SOMETHING IN LIFE. GOD MADE US SPECIAL AND HE APPOINT US WITH SOMETHING THAT ONLY YOU CAN DO. YOU ARE A BUSINESSWOMAN, AS A BUSINESS WOMAN YOU CANNOT AFFORD TO LIVE THAT KIND OF LIFE. Then, from that time. I feel I was totally free. I felt I am so in control of my life. I felt a fire inside of me. That nobody can stop me from achieving whatever God intends me to do.

Realization: How can I be so stupid. How can I not used my BRAIN… as a God’s gift for survival in this world. How can I let life blown me and thrown me just because of that word. How can I let my self imprisoned me to that word.God gave me brain to use. The brain is use for thinking. And i mean of deep thinking, analysing, innovating, creating, solving, …. The brain being the highest form of all is given by GOD for us to use …to think to analyze in order to survive.

Reminders: Please please please,. whoever are you that is reading this. Please be aware that we are created in the image and likeness of GOD. We are co-creator. That means, we can make or break things and people in our lives. Please be careful with your words, especially when you are talking to kids having an empty information in their heads. Because we don’t know the profound effect of what you have been said to any of the children. Its true- words are sharper than sword. Imagine, its been affecting my whole 16 years of life just because of a word that is misguided by my innocence age. We must all remembered. That whatever come out to our mouth let it pass thru and thru from our brain. Kids are fragile. Life is fragile. Us is fragile. Words are powerful and Prayer is Omnipotent… Whatever happens to your life… be aware and be very aware… for you might live a life that you don’t know you are living in hell. Do not just simply believe whatever teaching you have received dare to ask yourself  million times. And be aware that whoever is teaching you might be teaching you in his/her own experience only and that learn to harness the power of questioning…….

love to

I would love to work in visiting people in the house, or people will visit me and ask for an advice about money management. Or traveling – anywhere in the world, out in nature and the open bush and talk or help/share how to manage finances and have a great life.

I would love to work with curious children,moms,dads,CEOs,attorneys,ordinary folks,professionals and all levels of people that are interested on managing their money properly and how to obtain happiness thru the aid of managing money. Having an audience on the edge of their seats and feeling challenged to think outside the box make my workday amazing and meaningful. I would love to have an Impact on a better way to teach how we can use out natural abilities, logic and common sense in a win-win approach that benefits each family members and the whole world. And also I would love to have an Impact in the need to solve the problem that most people do not realize the longterm impact of their lifestyle choice on the future of the world.

The life I dream of living is Being a person who lives an extraordinary life traveling the world to observe and help preserve each family relationship by managing their finances and have a complete control of their life and money on this planet. I also dream the kind of life of living of being a person who uses the power of persuasion to reach both the hearts and minds of people from all walks of life and bring about significant change in their lives. These are things and activities i hope to do in the future. The main aim is not to be rich but how to help people understand that money is very important tool to happiness. its very important that all of us is working for it to live. Learning how to manage well the money liberates us and gives us a healthy living and happiness, however we should not allow money to rule our life and control us.  We must remember that money is a slave to a person and that it is willing to work for us 24 hours in a day. its not that we are the slaves of money but that money is a good slave to us. Money is very important but don’t let it over rule in your life. We got brain and heart to think its importance and not to replace the values of people on our lives. Maybe for this instant of time, I am not yet good in explaining the importance of money in our lives. The final thing is that… money is a tool to make a happier and joyful living.

great at what

What I am great at??? I am great at telling my own stories, experiences to people and my friends. I am great at sharing to people about life & touching their heart. I want to share and open the eyes of the people that are close to me and those people whom I can reach to tell them how to manage your money well and teach them how to do it. I want to work with strong and motivated individuals who has good heart. I love to work with people who is having the same goal, to master the power of money and to build strong god character with integrity. I would love to get paid in ding research and share what I have learned. I would love to get paid in sharing my ideas to people who needs it. I would love to get paid in creating ad campaigns about life and money that make people stop and think. I would love to get paid in inspiring and entertaining children who will change the world with their actions. I would love to get paid in making people listen and helping them understand how important to manage money well and how it is very closely related to happiness to each marriage life. I also love to get paid in doing gardening and landscaping…

These are the things I think for this time being i love to do and called for. Please don’t be judgmental each of us want something we want to do in our life. I just write what I want in my life to do and make money from it. Please read on my next post… for continuation….

now

I read a lot of financial books about to manage money and to acquire more wealth for hours and even for months. I love to have alot of money and have different2x fashion styles. So for a while I thought I wanted to work as a ramp model. I also thought being a leader of a big group of people. I used to envision I lead thousands of men. My best subject in school was science, so i got a college degree of applied science of Civil Engineering but now I am working in Trading.

My ideal job would be working to help people manage their financial accounts. I would love to create financial plans & blueprints, that would help people…(to understand & explain to my friends that money is very important tool to have happiness in life. When u have money & know how to manage it properly u can do a lot of things & help others.

All my nieces and nephews likes to talk to me and i always told them to do business, let money work for them and not employ to a job. And I love to see them excited and imagine things how it look likes to be a businessman, that is knowledgeable in twisting and turning money matters. I would also like to be able to travel the whole world & observe the culture,people, business and how other people especially the rich people make money… Please don’t misunderstood me, i just want to share what i love doing and want doing for myself and life… Pls read on my next post for continuation.